Friday, October 14, 2011
Thursday, June 30, 2011
45 things a girl wants but wont ask for. ←
45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love ..
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
60+ things gurls don't know about guys :P
1--Guys hate s*uts even though they have *** with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)
2--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
5--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
6--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
7--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
9--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
10--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
11--Guys get jealous easily.
12--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
13--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
15--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16--Girls are guys' weaknesses.
17--Guys are very open about themselves.
18--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
19--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
21--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
22--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23--Guys will brag about anything.
24--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.
25--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
26--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
27--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
28--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
29--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
30--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
31--Try to be as straightforward as possible.
32--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
33--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
34--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
35--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
36--Guys don't really have final decisions.
37--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
38--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
39--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.
40--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
41--Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
43--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
44--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
46--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.
49--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
50--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
51--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
52--Not all guys are jackass. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.
53--We don't like girls who are too skinny.
54--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.
55--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....
56--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...
57--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you s*xually
58--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..
59--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...
60--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.
61--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Why Guys Love Girls:
2.The way they always find the right spot on our shoulder
3.How cute they look when they sleep
4.The ease in which they fit into our arms
5.The way they kiss you and make everything alright in the world
6.How cute they are when they eat
7.The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end its all worth while
8.The way they are always warm even if its minus 30 degrees
9.The way they look good no matter what they wear
10.The way she fishes for compliments even though you both know shes the most beautiful thing on this earth
11.how cute they are when they argue
12.How their hand always seems to find ours
13.The way they smile
14.The way you feel when you see her name on the caller id after you’ve had a big fight
15.The way she says “lets not fight anymore” even though you know an hour later…
16.The way they kiss you when youve done something nice for her
17.The way they kiss you when you say”i love you”
18.Actually.. just the way they kiss you
19.The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20.Then apologizing for crying over something that silly
21.The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22.Then the way they apologize when it really does hurt (even though we dont admit it!)
23.The way they say “I miss you”
24.The way you miss them
25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesnt hurt her anymore…Yet regardless whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them… it matters not.Because once in your life whatever they were to the world they become the world to you.When you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound you know that your own life is inevitably consumed with the rhythmic beatings of her very own heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of a mind, but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
i missed someone.. :|
because I haven't seen you in a while.
The distance is tearing us apart.
But I can hold the memories in heart.
I hate being this far away.
I feel like I can't express the things I need to say.
People say things that aren’t true.
to wipe away every single tear.
I'm always in some crazy memory.
You really don't know what you mean to me,
but hopefully this explanation will make you see.
I could never stay mad at you.
You're special in everything you do.
You've taught me a lot of lessons,
and I'm thankful for all of your blessings.
It's just that I try to be happy,
but the more I try the more everyone hates me.
It's like the harder I work, the more they take,
the more I heal, the more they break.
The happier I get, the more miserable they are.
Sometimes I get so close but feel so far.
All I’m asking is please don't hurt me.
I'm hurting where only I can see.
I wish I could tell you all the things I want to say.
I wish you were here with me everyday.
I know some things I did to you were cruel.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
reasons
♥ I believe that Allah has a reason for everything that happens in our life, surely it is the best one.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Remember once more
Some days I wonder if you were here,
would you be proud of me?
Would you see me as strong?
There are only a few things I remember from the past.
The rest is a blurr.
You taught me the hard lessons of life.
I wish you were here.
The last time I cried was at the funeral.
I've tried to forget the past.
I tried to forget your faith.
The family says I look like you the most.
I never got to be there to hear your last words.
What would you have said?
I love you father.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
time raya kat kucing
Thursday, May 5, 2011
tadaa~
its obvious to tell,
and we must go on,
but my heart,
still feels like it belongs to you,
i dont want no one else to have it,
i gave it to you,
why didnt you keep it?
when you promised,
you would never break it,
why couldnt you have,
kept that promise?
i gave you all my love,
but i guess it wasnt enough,
to make you stay,
since youve left me,
alone and for my heart to bleed,
to bleed over you,
and cry tears of misery,
while i cry alone in my room,
thinking of the memories,
that made me smile,
but now make me cry,
great memories of us
every laugh,
every smile,
every kiss
every "i love you",
that i will never forget,
as they are all imprinted in my mind,
i will always love you,
and you will always be in my heart,
and i promise that,
if love never follows through,
then i willl never fall again,
as long as i dont have you,
my one and only,
so now i walk on,
with happienesss swept out of my mind,
my soul feeling hollow,
and my heart incomplete,
and broken...
wishing for you to come back,
but letting go of you,
just means,
that i will always love you
To the one who broke me
Has been deserted,
And you have been left alone.
And your dreams
Have been rejected,
The ones you had of us,
So frequently,
Are no longer possible with me.
Even though you have
Broken me,
You do not care.
I know why,
Even if you think I do not.
I can see through your lies
That you told me
So frequent.
But,
Because I Love You,
I believed you
I was a fool
I believed your lies,
As you told them
But said to others
The exact opposite.
“Why,” I ask,
So frequently
But, you say the same
“I do not know”
That you told me,
When I worried
About You.
I did not care,
However,
That you were lying
I should have seen it,
And stopped it
And left you
Even though
You told nothing
But lies.
And you broke me
Threw my heart,
In pieces
Out to sea.
And now
As I have done
So frequently
Swim,
500,000 miles away
To the shore,
With the pieces
Of my heart,
That I could find.
And I walk
Walk away from the dream
The future
The life
That I had had
For us
And only us
But yet,
As I repeat,
You do not care
For you left me
Long before I said
Goodbye,
Long before I thought
Goodbye.
So frequently
I think about
What I could have done
Could have said
Could have Changed
I could have said
I Love You
Every day,
Not through text
As I have done before,
So frequently,
But out loud
Every time we hugged.
I could have shown
The world
What I felt
That
I Love You
I could have shown you,
And proved it
But,
You left me.
And as you read this,
I hope,
I hope you feel
My heart breaking,
How you saved me
With lies
I Hope
Your heart breaks
Like mine
Still is breaking now,
So frequently.
And through
This poem,
This story,
I hope you feel
What you felt
Before you left me,
Twice.
I hope you learn
From your mistakes
Not mine
Mine are mine to hide
Or show
The world
As I please.
But you?
You choose to bury
Bury them deep within
Your heart
The one
I hope breaks
And you hide
Your heart
So no one can break it
So no one can steal it
This is why
You Hurt Us
Without meaning
Without knowing
You Hurt Us
Each of us
Over and over
So frequent.
Us
Who Love You
Who Care
Who will put
Our lives to a stop
To help you
To Care For You
We will hurt ourselves to
Help You
But,
In return,
You break us
Each of us
One By One
Over and over
Without any
Second thoughts.
I,
I have been called fool
For not leaving you
The first time
And believing you
When you said
You love me
So frequently.
But
When they asked,
“Why are you with her?”
I simply answered
“I Love her”
With all the
Little pieces
Of my heart.
And you?
You still have
What pieces
Of my heart
That I could not find
And you will keep them
Until someone,
Who does not find me useless
Who does not mind my questions
Who Does Not Lie
Or Cheat,
Fights
Fights you for
The rest
Of my heart.
But,
I will not find
Such a person
Because such a person
Does not exist
You,
You lied
You cheated
So frequently
And it broke me
Broke me every time
Every time you
Lied
Cheated.
You say you didn’t mean to.
I think
You knew you were
But did not care.
So,
I will not find
Such a person
Because if he exists
I would have found you
Already,
But,
I found
You
And,
I Love You.
So,
I will be alone
Now,
Forever,
Until someone,
Like you,
Comes along
With the guts
That you had,
To break me
And never stop
Breaking me.
But this time,
I will not stop
My friends,
Who I live for,
From hurting you
I’ve stopped them now
For you
Because I still love you
Because you’re the reason
I’m still alive
Here,
Now,
You’re the reason
I’m still
In this state,
This
@#!*% -hole of a place.
And now,
As I’m dying
I Hope You’re Happy (because im not)
You’re the one I let get away
Who I am.. Simplified.. Or not
To me, my future is very important. It bothers me when others don't plan for the future and think that things they do don't affect the future. But I don't like things that don't come natural to me. For example, I'm good at Math, English, and History. But science is confusing to me. Thus, I don't like it. And soccer's easy for me, and football, but field hockey isn't- so I hate it.
When I love- I love whole heartedly. I won't see a single flaw or wrong doing when I love someone. I won't say those three words if I don't mean them either. I take love seriously. That's why I hate it when people cheat and stuff. I hate it when people don't take it seriously. If you feel something's right deep in your soul, then chances are that it is right. Love is NEVER wrong, I don't care what the situation is. Love is pure and should be nurtured- no squashed like they like to teach you these days!
I trust until you give me a reason not to. I won't believe rumors about you. But once you break my trust, chances are that I won't forgive you- or it'll take a while.
I'm often found trying to make others laugh. I guess you could say laughter is like music, it gives me energy I need to live and be happy. I like being around my friends- but I'm often alone studying things they don't teach us in school (and reading to learn about myself)
I LOVE learning new things. I love abstract ideas.People who think outside the box are more than welcome as my friend. I also love debating with people. It's a thrill I guess. I need to have knowledge. I love the arts- poetry, songs, plays, books, etc. I just love it.
But I tend to put up a front with some people. I hide things from my friends just so that they don't change the way they see me. I desire everyone's respect and I aspire to be looked up to. I love feeling like I taught someone something valuable. But too many questions annoy me.
I feel mega old compared to all my other friends. They just seem so irresponsible and reckless. They say they hate everyone- when hate shouldn't be used loosely- and that no one understands- when tons of people TRY to!
I love being depended on. I often bite off more than I can chew- for lack of a better metaphor. I see both sides of an argument and I'd like to avoid confrontation. But when I do choose a side, there's no shaking my beliefs. I believe everyone should have the same rights and that not tolerating who someone is should be considered wrong- instead of accepted. As you could probably see: I support gay rights lol. And other causes... but we won't get into that! XD Haha!
Friday, April 8, 2011
I was lying girl. I've been lying to you...
Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl, it beats for two.
Because I got your love and I got these vices.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl.
I've been lying to you...
Everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.
Everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Because everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me, I can't hold on.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, every word I've said.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Friday, April 1, 2011
my pathetic life hahahahaha
it started about 1 years ago when i was 20 only a few weeks before my practical finish when my life changed. my father the one person i could really talk to accident and got cancer and still now haven't heal because the monsters in that crappy hospital didn't care enough. i have hated hospitals ever since cause it doesn't seem as if they really care. my life changed forever. nothing was the way it used to be my father would cry himself to sleep. my sister would cry. i would sit and not believe it was happening. the tears would pour from my eyes. i stopped talking to my friends . 'to many bad memories'. i was moved to a different form but they still would hurt me. i finally found a friend like me. a girl who felt like an outcast as much as me. we quickly became best friends. because we both each other. my life seriously makes me feel like i m worthless. but just because life has been bad dosent mean its me who causes it. so what do you think of my pathetic life...to be cont
"it's always wrong to hate, but it's never wrong to love."
i love to be happy & smile as much as possible.
i'm a very nice & honest person.
i'm a very sensible realistic person.
i won't believe anything unless there's proof.
i don't do drama so save it for someone who cares.
whatever you have to say about me will go in one ear & right out the other.
i do whatever i want & i don't care what people think of me.
i'm shy around people i don't know.
i'm smart when i need to be but most of the time i'm a total idiot.
i absolutely can't stand liars & fake ass people.
i'm a perfectionist & a neat freak.
i have major trust issues :/
i worry way to much about stupid little things.
i get over things quickly & don't hold grudges.
if you want to know anything else, you know what to do.
love me or hate me<3
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
100 secret~
2.i dont like to be touched.
3.every single one of my poems have a meaning
4.i dont like junk food.
5.i dont drink pop.
6.i would rather crash my car then hit an animal.
7.im the only one that knows how my brother really died.
8.i wont tell someone i hate them.
9.i have 30 fish,4 cats, 5 dogs, 2 birds, 1 chinchilla, and 3 chipmunks.
10.to most people im a fake.
11.i have had about 21 ex-girlfriends
12.i have feelings for everyone i date
13.....
not finished yet
Friday, March 25, 2011
bebelan x tentu =.="
how to start..
wahh soo long sik update blog tk kira2 2-3tahun gya asa..
tk pun terpaksa mok update..
mok clarify sumething that annoys me alot these day..
the haters and peoples who likes to poret2 hahaha
life as student its hard rite??
i noe now i being through it too.. :)
study, environment, lecture, friends ETC
well it has been almost 3 year survive here..
thanks god im still alive though with help friends and family.. :')
memang susah laa even now try to struggle without money hahahaha
im TOTALLY BROKE NOW fyi~ hahahaha
suma duit simpanan, gaji2 terkumpul sjak SPM abis huhu sik sabar mok abis study n keja..
sik kdak korang ilek jak mak bapak bagi.. tapi ku pake duit nk ku kumpul hasil titik peloh ku..
fyifm, ku sik ska nyusah mak bapak ku even almost everyday my mom call ask me "pa kaba ko jik? sehat? da duit?"
then i reply " im fine la mak jgn wso ku sehat2 jak, duit xda tp boh nk gago ng hahaha" =.='
i noe she reli worried..
i like make people worry.. hahahaha!!
i noe she noe that ku jarang makan.. bila ku jarang makan msti sakit.. sebab ku jarang mkn.. "mala jak main game ndak alah2 men game sik gago makan tdo yala sakit2 jak2" word nk slalu mak ku bebel..
"well ctok lain cta la mak bz dgn study~" alasan ku hahaha
truth u noe laa.. sebab ku sik mkn pun ku xda duit..
mls mk mntk lgik pun gyk idup ku tk ya penting hahahaha!!
i see many ppl expression bout me..
mostly ppl say im from poor family.. fyi its totaly wrong..
oi bapak ku da 3 kompany lol~ =.=
tp maseh juak ku malas mk mintak ngan cdak..
bukan pa.. k sik mok nyusah cdak bah..
panjang cita.. pendek kan, bapak ku accident last year and he hasn't baik gyk..
maseh sakit, worst he got cancer.. my heart totally break.. haizz
now he still sick, demam and macam2 la sakit datang knak side effect kimo therapy..
my mother pays medical fees almost RM80k dan tiap2 bulan beli ubat dekat RM2k.. =.="
ku harap bapak ku sembuh la cepat2.. ku mok nya ngga ku konvo lak.. :'(
ya jak lah..
harap final tk ku bejalan dgn lancar.. amin
god bless you all i love you~ <3