I was lying girl. I've been lying to you...

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl, it beats for two.
Because I got your love and I got these vices.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl.
I've been lying to you...

Everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.
Everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Because everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me, I can't hold on.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, every word I've said.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

my pathetic life hahahahaha

my life wouldn't be the worst there is but i still don't think its the best life can offer.
it started about 1 years ago when i was 20 only a few weeks before my practical finish when my life changed. my father the one person i could really talk to accident and got cancer and still now haven't heal because the monsters in that crappy hospital didn't care enough. i have hated hospitals ever since cause it doesn't seem as if they really care. my life changed forever. nothing was the way it used to be my father would cry himself to sleep. my sister would cry. i would sit and not believe it was happening. the tears would pour from my eyes. i stopped talking to my friends . 'to many bad memories'. i was moved to a different form but they still would hurt me. i finally found a friend like me. a girl who felt like an outcast as much as me. we quickly became best friends. because we both each other. my life seriously makes me feel like i m worthless. but just because life has been bad dosent mean its me who causes it. so what do you think of my pathetic life...to be cont

"it's always wrong to hate, but it's never wrong to love."

i don't believe in hate.
i love to be happy & smile as much as possible.
i'm a very nice & honest person.
i'm a very sensible realistic person.
i won't believe anything unless there's proof.
i don't do drama so save it for someone who cares.
whatever you have to say about me will go in one ear & right out the other.
i do whatever i want & i don't care what people think of me.
i'm shy around people i don't know.
i'm smart when i need to be but most of the time i'm a total idiot.
i absolutely can't stand liars & fake ass people.
i'm a perfectionist & a neat freak.
i have major trust issues :/
i worry way to much about stupid little things.
i get over things quickly & don't hold grudges.
if you want to know anything else, you know what to do.

love me or hate me<3

100 secret~

1.i hate love.
2.i dont like to be touched.
3.every single one of my poems have a meaning
4.i dont like junk food.
5.i dont drink pop.
6.i would rather crash my car then hit an animal.
7.im the only one that knows how my brother really died.
8.i wont tell someone i hate them.
9.i have 30 fish,4 cats, 5 dogs, 2 birds, 1 chinchilla, and 3 chipmunks.
10.to most people im a fake.
11.i have had about 21 ex-girlfriends
12.i have feelings for everyone i date
13.....
not finished yet

bebelan x tentu =.="

well..
how to start..
wahh soo long sik update blog tk kira2 2-3tahun gya asa..
tk pun terpaksa mok update..
mok clarify sumething that annoys me alot these day..
the haters and peoples who likes to poret2 hahaha
life as student its hard rite??
i noe now i being through it too.. :)
study, environment, lecture, friends ETC
well it has been almost 3 year survive here..
thanks god im still alive though with help friends and family.. :')
memang susah laa even now try to struggle without money hahahaha
im TOTALLY BROKE NOW fyi~ hahahaha
suma duit simpanan, gaji2 terkumpul sjak SPM abis huhu sik sabar mok abis study n keja..
sik kdak korang ilek jak mak bapak bagi.. tapi ku pake duit nk ku kumpul hasil titik peloh ku..
fyifm, ku sik ska nyusah mak bapak ku even almost everyday my mom call ask me "pa kaba ko jik? sehat? da duit?"
then i reply " im fine la mak jgn wso ku sehat2 jak, duit xda tp boh nk gago ng hahaha" =.='
i noe she reli worried..
i like make people worry.. hahahaha!!
i noe she noe that ku jarang makan.. bila ku jarang makan msti sakit.. sebab ku jarang mkn.. "mala jak main game ndak alah2 men game sik gago makan tdo yala sakit2 jak2" word nk slalu mak ku bebel..
"well ctok lain cta la mak bz dgn study~" alasan ku hahaha
truth u noe laa.. sebab ku sik mkn pun ku xda duit..
mls mk mntk lgik pun gyk idup ku tk ya penting hahahaha!!
i see many ppl expression bout me..
mostly ppl say im from poor family.. fyi its totaly wrong..
oi bapak ku da 3 kompany lol~ =.=
tp maseh juak ku malas mk mintak ngan cdak..
bukan pa.. k sik mok nyusah cdak bah..
panjang cita.. pendek kan, bapak ku accident last year and he hasn't baik gyk..
maseh sakit, worst he got cancer.. my heart totally break.. haizz
now he still sick, demam and macam2 la sakit datang knak side effect kimo therapy..
my mother pays medical fees almost RM80k dan tiap2 bulan beli ubat dekat RM2k.. =.="
ku harap bapak ku sembuh la cepat2.. ku mok nya ngga ku konvo lak.. :'(
ya jak lah..
harap final tk ku bejalan dgn lancar.. amin
god bless you all i love you~ <3

I can admit I’m sorry, if I did would you agree?

And all the empty promises, all when you’re with me

A resolute indifference, will hold us here and now

But I need to make a sacrifice, if I could I’d tell you how

I love you so much.. :'(

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