Ive had really hard times before, And even now, My heart is still hurting, really, really painful things. When i lose an important thing, the pain still remains, and still hurts. But, im still looking for her. The one who likes me as i am. The person only for me. And i found her. But finding her was the beginning of something more painful. Even if i could do something, it was painful to be close together. Seeing that person in pain, is painful. Therefore i hid from that person. I disappeared because i love that person. But still, not seeing that person is even more painful. Not being able to see that person again is much, much more painful. I left her, because i love her. Im leaving her because its for own happiness. Its hard to fake smile, harder to pretend its alright! Should i end this.. End this life.. It mean nothing... Nothing....