Friday, October 14, 2011

HERE'S 99 FACTS ABOUT GUYS

( A GUY WHO IS SERIOUSLY IN LOVE AND NOT JUST AN INFACTUATION )

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate nice boy!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.


THANK YOU FOR READING :">

AFTER READING PEOPLES COMMENT .. I THEREFORE CONCLUDE SOME FACTS ARE NOT APPLICABLE TO ALL GUYS !! \m/ ^_____^ \m/

ANYWAY, IT WAS WRITTEN BY A GUY WHO WAS ALWAYS BEEN DUMPED .. LOLZ :P


Thursday, June 30, 2011

45 things a girl wants but wont ask for. ←

45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love ..

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

60+ things gurls don't know about guys :P

60+ things gurls don't know about guys

1--Guys hate s*uts even though they have *** with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)

2--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11--Guys get jealous easily.

12--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16--Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17--Guys are very open about themselves.

18--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23--Guys will brag about anything.

24--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

25--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

26--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

27--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

28--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

29--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

30--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

31--Try to be as straightforward as possible.

32--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.


33--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

34--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

35--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

36--Guys don't really have final decisions.

37--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

38--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

39--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

40--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

49--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

50--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

51--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

52--Not all guys are jackass. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

53--We don't like girls who are too skinny.

54--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.

55--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

56--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

57--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you s*xually

58--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

59--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

60--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

61--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Why Guys Love Girls:

1.The way they always smell good even if it’s just shampoo
2.The way they always find the right spot on our shoulder
3.How cute they look when they sleep
4.The ease in which they fit into our arms
5.The way they kiss you and make everything alright in the world
6.How cute they are when they eat
7.The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end its all worth while
8.The way they are always warm even if its minus 30 degrees
9.The way they look good no matter what they wear
10.The way she fishes for compliments even though you both know shes the most beautiful thing on this earth
11.how cute they are when they argue
12.How their hand always seems to find ours
13.The way they smile
14.The way you feel when you see her name on the caller id after you’ve had a big fight
15.The way she says “lets not fight anymore” even though you know an hour later…
16.The way they kiss you when youve done something nice for her
17.The way they kiss you when you say”i love you”
18.Actually.. just the way they kiss you
19.The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20.Then apologizing for crying over something that silly
21.The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22.Then the way they apologize when it really does hurt (even though we dont admit it!)
23.The way they say “I miss you”
24.The way you miss them
25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesnt hurt her anymore…Yet regardless whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them… it matters not.Because once in your life whatever they were to the world they become the world to you.When you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound you know that your own life is inevitably consumed with the rhythmic beatings of her very own heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of a mind, but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

i missed someone.. :|

I look at your picture and smile,
because I haven't seen you in a while.
The distance is tearing us apart.
But I can hold the memories in heart.
I hate being this far away.
I feel like I can't express the things I need to say.
People say things that aren’t true.
to wipe away every single tear.
I'm always in some crazy memory.
You really don't know what you mean to me,
but hopefully this explanation will make you see.
I could never stay mad at you.
You're special in everything you do.
You've taught me a lot of lessons,
and I'm thankful for all of your blessings.
It's just that I try to be happy,
but the more I try the more everyone hates me.
It's like the harder I work, the more they take,
the more I heal, the more they break.
The happier I get, the more miserable they are.
Sometimes I get so close but feel so far.
All I’m asking is please don't hurt me.
I'm hurting where only I can see.
I wish I could tell you all the things I want to say.
I wish you were here with me everyday.
I know some things I did to you were cruel.
Believe me when I say I was a fool...

Sunday, May 29, 2011

reasons

I believe that Allah has a reason for everything that happens in our life. Whatever it is, it will make us strong. It can widen our hopes and help us fulfill every dream we have. He has plans for each of us and though we do not know what life brings us, surely it is the best one. Allah is always there in every corner though secretly working on us through his instruments, He is there watching us always. We need to have faith to our almighty Allah and whatever decision we made, we should ask for His guidance. ♥ ♥

♥ I believe that Allah has a reason for everything that happens in our life, surely it is the best one.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Remember once more

I miss you.
Some days I wonder if you were here,
would you be proud of me?
Would you see me as strong?
There are only a few things I remember from the past.
The rest is a blurr.
You taught me the hard lessons of life.
I wish you were here.
The last time I cried was at the funeral.
I've tried to forget the past.
I tried to forget your faith.
The family says I look like you the most.
I never got to be there to hear your last words.
What would you have said?
I love you father.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

salam asalamualaikum kawan2 yang dikasihi sekalian.. Saya Akmal Haziq Bin Yusop menyatakan kesedihan diatas pemergian ayahanda yg saya sayangi Yusop Bin Japar.. kerahmatullah pada pagi 5.55am Rabu 11/05/2011.. Semoga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat kurniakan berkat daripada Allah.. Al-Fatihah..


time raya kat kucing


koma last day kat hospital miri

Thursday, May 5, 2011

tadaa~

i know its over,
its obvious to tell,
and we must go on,
but my heart,
still feels like it belongs to you,
i dont want no one else to have it,
i gave it to you,
why didnt you keep it?
when you promised,
you would never break it,
why couldnt you have,
kept that promise?
i gave you all my love,
but i guess it wasnt enough,
to make you stay,
since youve left me,
alone and for my heart to bleed,
to bleed over you,
and cry tears of misery,
while i cry alone in my room,
thinking of the memories,
that made me smile,
but now make me cry,
great memories of us
every laugh,
every smile,
every kiss
every "i love you",
that i will never forget,
as they are all imprinted in my mind,
i will always love you,
and you will always be in my heart,
and i promise that,
if love never follows through,
then i willl never fall again,
as long as i dont have you,
my one and only,
so now i walk on,
with happienesss swept out of my mind,
my soul feeling hollow,
and my heart incomplete,
and broken...
wishing for you to come back,
but letting go of you,
just means,
that i will always love you

To the one who broke me

I hope you realize

Has been deserted,

And you have been left alone.

And your dreams

Have been rejected,

The ones you had of us,

So frequently,

Are no longer possible with me.


Even though you have

Broken me,

You do not care.

I know why,

Even if you think I do not.

I can see through your lies

That you told me

So frequent.

But,

Because I Love You,

I believed you

I was a fool

I believed your lies,

As you told them

But said to others

The exact opposite.


“Why,” I ask,

So frequently

But, you say the same

“I do not know”

That you told me,

When I worried

About You.

I did not care,

However,

That you were lying

I should have seen it,

And stopped it

And left you

Even though

You told nothing

But lies.


And you broke me

Threw my heart,

In pieces

Out to sea.

And now

As I have done

So frequently

Swim,

500,000 miles away

To the shore,

With the pieces

Of my heart,

That I could find.

And I walk

Walk away from the dream

The future

The life

That I had had

For us

And only us


But yet,

As I repeat,

You do not care

For you left me

Long before I said

Goodbye,

Long before I thought

Goodbye.

So frequently

I think about

What I could have done

Could have said

Could have Changed

I could have said

I Love You

Every day,

Not through text

As I have done before,

So frequently,

But out loud

Every time we hugged.

I could have shown

The world

What I felt

That

I Love You

I could have shown you,

And proved it


But,

You left me.

And as you read this,

I hope,

I hope you feel

My heart breaking,

How you saved me

With lies

I Hope

Your heart breaks

Like mine

Still is breaking now,

So frequently.


And through

This poem,

This story,

I hope you feel

What you felt

Before you left me,

Twice.

I hope you learn

From your mistakes

Not mine

Mine are mine to hide

Or show

The world

As I please.

But you?

You choose to bury

Bury them deep within

Your heart

The one

I hope breaks

And you hide

Your heart

So no one can break it

So no one can steal it

This is why

You Hurt Us

Without meaning

Without knowing

You Hurt Us

Each of us

Over and over

So frequent.


Us

Who Love You

Who Care

Who will put

Our lives to a stop

To help you

To Care For You

We will hurt ourselves to

Help You

But,

In return,

You break us

Each of us

One By One

Over and over

Without any

Second thoughts.


I,

I have been called fool

For not leaving you

The first time

And believing you

When you said

You love me

So frequently.


But

When they asked,

“Why are you with her?”

I simply answered

“I Love her”

With all the

Little pieces

Of my heart.


And you?

You still have

What pieces

Of my heart

That I could not find

And you will keep them

Until someone,

Who does not find me useless

Who does not mind my questions

Who Does Not Lie

Or Cheat,

Fights

Fights you for

The rest

Of my heart.


But,

I will not find

Such a person

Because such a person

Does not exist

You,

You lied

You cheated

So frequently

And it broke me

Broke me every time

Every time you

Lied

Cheated.

You say you didn’t mean to.

I think

You knew you were

But did not care.


So,

I will not find

Such a person

Because if he exists

I would have found you

Already,

But,

I found

You

And,

I Love You.


So,

I will be alone

Now,

Forever,

Until someone,

Like you,

Comes along

With the guts

That you had,

To break me

And never stop

Breaking me.


But this time,

I will not stop

My friends,

Who I live for,

From hurting you

I’ve stopped them now

For you

Because I still love you

Because you’re the reason

I’m still alive

Here,

Now,

You’re the reason

I’m still

In this state,

This

@#!*% -hole of a place.


And now,

As I’m dying

I Hope You’re Happy (because im not)

You’re the one I let get away

Who I am.. Simplified.. Or not

(So I found something on the internet that basically helps you find out, basically, what type of person you are. There's a list of words that you could describe yourself as. I guess I'm bored lol)

To me, my future is very important. It bothers me when others don't plan for the future and think that things they do don't affect the future. But I don't like things that don't come natural to me. For example, I'm good at Math, English, and History. But science is confusing to me. Thus, I don't like it. And soccer's easy for me, and football, but field hockey isn't- so I hate it.

When I love- I love whole heartedly. I won't see a single flaw or wrong doing when I love someone. I won't say those three words if I don't mean them either. I take love seriously. That's why I hate it when people cheat and stuff. I hate it when people don't take it seriously. If you feel something's right deep in your soul, then chances are that it is right. Love is NEVER wrong, I don't care what the situation is. Love is pure and should be nurtured- no squashed like they like to teach you these days!

I trust until you give me a reason not to. I won't believe rumors about you. But once you break my trust, chances are that I won't forgive you- or it'll take a while.

I'm often found trying to make others laugh. I guess you could say laughter is like music, it gives me energy I need to live and be happy. I like being around my friends- but I'm often alone studying things they don't teach us in school (and reading to learn about myself)

I LOVE learning new things. I love abstract ideas.People who think outside the box are more than welcome as my friend. I also love debating with people. It's a thrill I guess. I need to have knowledge. I love the arts- poetry, songs, plays, books, etc. I just love it.

But I tend to put up a front with some people. I hide things from my friends just so that they don't change the way they see me. I desire everyone's respect and I aspire to be looked up to. I love feeling like I taught someone something valuable. But too many questions annoy me.

I feel mega old compared to all my other friends. They just seem so irresponsible and reckless. They say they hate everyone- when hate shouldn't be used loosely- and that no one understands- when tons of people TRY to!

I love being depended on. I often bite off more than I can chew- for lack of a better metaphor. I see both sides of an argument and I'd like to avoid confrontation. But when I do choose a side, there's no shaking my beliefs. I believe everyone should have the same rights and that not tolerating who someone is should be considered wrong- instead of accepted. As you could probably see: I support gay rights lol. And other causes... but we won't get into that! XD Haha!
Smiles,hugs and love. u are always in my heart. Stares,glares and sharing my love with u is what I'll always do. u bring me joy with just a stare. u bring me happiness with just one word. When I'm down you're always there. It means a lot to me because I know that you care. Words can't describe what you mean to me but I'll try. u the greatest girl that I've ever meet. Lets keep making memories because there's a lot more to make. may your life be filled with love like you've made mine. I hope I can be apart of it. I'll always be here by your side.

Friday, April 8, 2011

I was lying girl. I've been lying to you...



Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl, it beats for two.
Because I got your love and I got these vices.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you. I was lying girl.
I've been lying to you...

Everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.
Everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me on my own.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Because everything I touch turns to stone.
So wrap your arms around me, and leave me, I can't hold on.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, every word I've said.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Friday, April 1, 2011

my pathetic life hahahahaha

my life wouldn't be the worst there is but i still don't think its the best life can offer.
it started about 1 years ago when i was 20 only a few weeks before my practical finish when my life changed. my father the one person i could really talk to accident and got cancer and still now haven't heal because the monsters in that crappy hospital didn't care enough. i have hated hospitals ever since cause it doesn't seem as if they really care. my life changed forever. nothing was the way it used to be my father would cry himself to sleep. my sister would cry. i would sit and not believe it was happening. the tears would pour from my eyes. i stopped talking to my friends . 'to many bad memories'. i was moved to a different form but they still would hurt me. i finally found a friend like me. a girl who felt like an outcast as much as me. we quickly became best friends. because we both each other. my life seriously makes me feel like i m worthless. but just because life has been bad dosent mean its me who causes it. so what do you think of my pathetic life...to be cont

"it's always wrong to hate, but it's never wrong to love."

i don't believe in hate.
i love to be happy & smile as much as possible.
i'm a very nice & honest person.
i'm a very sensible realistic person.
i won't believe anything unless there's proof.
i don't do drama so save it for someone who cares.
whatever you have to say about me will go in one ear & right out the other.
i do whatever i want & i don't care what people think of me.
i'm shy around people i don't know.
i'm smart when i need to be but most of the time i'm a total idiot.
i absolutely can't stand liars & fake ass people.
i'm a perfectionist & a neat freak.
i have major trust issues :/
i worry way to much about stupid little things.
i get over things quickly & don't hold grudges.
if you want to know anything else, you know what to do.

love me or hate me<3

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

100 secret~

1.i hate love.
2.i dont like to be touched.
3.every single one of my poems have a meaning
4.i dont like junk food.
5.i dont drink pop.
6.i would rather crash my car then hit an animal.
7.im the only one that knows how my brother really died.
8.i wont tell someone i hate them.
9.i have 30 fish,4 cats, 5 dogs, 2 birds, 1 chinchilla, and 3 chipmunks.
10.to most people im a fake.
11.i have had about 21 ex-girlfriends
12.i have feelings for everyone i date
13.....
not finished yet

Friday, March 25, 2011

bebelan x tentu =.="

well..
how to start..
wahh soo long sik update blog tk kira2 2-3tahun gya asa..
tk pun terpaksa mok update..
mok clarify sumething that annoys me alot these day..
the haters and peoples who likes to poret2 hahaha
life as student its hard rite??
i noe now i being through it too.. :)
study, environment, lecture, friends ETC
well it has been almost 3 year survive here..
thanks god im still alive though with help friends and family.. :')
memang susah laa even now try to struggle without money hahahaha
im TOTALLY BROKE NOW fyi~ hahahaha
suma duit simpanan, gaji2 terkumpul sjak SPM abis huhu sik sabar mok abis study n keja..
sik kdak korang ilek jak mak bapak bagi.. tapi ku pake duit nk ku kumpul hasil titik peloh ku..
fyifm, ku sik ska nyusah mak bapak ku even almost everyday my mom call ask me "pa kaba ko jik? sehat? da duit?"
then i reply " im fine la mak jgn wso ku sehat2 jak, duit xda tp boh nk gago ng hahaha" =.='
i noe she reli worried..
i like make people worry.. hahahaha!!
i noe she noe that ku jarang makan.. bila ku jarang makan msti sakit.. sebab ku jarang mkn.. "mala jak main game ndak alah2 men game sik gago makan tdo yala sakit2 jak2" word nk slalu mak ku bebel..
"well ctok lain cta la mak bz dgn study~" alasan ku hahaha
truth u noe laa.. sebab ku sik mkn pun ku xda duit..
mls mk mntk lgik pun gyk idup ku tk ya penting hahahaha!!
i see many ppl expression bout me..
mostly ppl say im from poor family.. fyi its totaly wrong..
oi bapak ku da 3 kompany lol~ =.=
tp maseh juak ku malas mk mintak ngan cdak..
bukan pa.. k sik mok nyusah cdak bah..
panjang cita.. pendek kan, bapak ku accident last year and he hasn't baik gyk..
maseh sakit, worst he got cancer.. my heart totally break.. haizz
now he still sick, demam and macam2 la sakit datang knak side effect kimo therapy..
my mother pays medical fees almost RM80k dan tiap2 bulan beli ubat dekat RM2k.. =.="
ku harap bapak ku sembuh la cepat2.. ku mok nya ngga ku konvo lak.. :'(
ya jak lah..
harap final tk ku bejalan dgn lancar.. amin
god bless you all i love you~ <3

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I can admit I’m sorry, if I did would you agree?

And all the empty promises, all when you’re with me

A resolute indifference, will hold us here and now

But I need to make a sacrifice, if I could I’d tell you how

I love you so much.. :'(

Saturday, February 26, 2011

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